Sometimes, do you ever sit there and think… is this even worth it?
I've been book blogging on Crossroad Reviews since 2010. That is a long time to pour your heart into something. I do not make money most of the time. There are no big influencer checks, no brand deals, no viral moments paying my bills. I do it because I genuinely love books and I love helping authors get their stories out into the world.
And yes, I get free books, which honestly matters because books are expensive. Like really expensive. That alone feels like a small win.
But then there are days like this past Monday.
I sat down, ready to work on posts, and instead of feeling motivated, all I wanted to do was turn off the computer and take a nap. Not because I hate what I do. Not because I am done with books. I was just tired. Mentally tired. Emotionally tired.
And the more I thought about it, the more I realized I am not alone in feeling this way.
I have seen so many accounts lately talking about the same thing. Burnout. Low energy. Questioning why they keep posting when engagement feels off and everything feels harder than it used to. It is everywhere right now.
I keep thinking, if I were making a ton of money from this, maybe the struggle would make more sense. Hustle through it, right? That is what we are always told. But when you are doing something purely because you enjoy it, when it is a passion project and not a paycheck, the question hits differently.
What is it worth?
Some days, it feels worth it when a reader tells me they picked up a book because of a review I shared. Some days, it feels worth it when an author feels supported or seen. Some days, it feels worth it simply because books have always been my comfort and sharing them feels natural.
And some days, it honestly feels like too much.
I think we need to talk more about that space. The space where you still love what you do, but you are exhausted. Where passion does not cancel out burnout. Where you can care deeply and still need a break.
Maybe the worth is not measured in money, followers, or likes. Maybe it is in the years of showing up. The consistency. The quiet impact you do not always get to see.
I do not have a perfect answer. I am still figuring it out myself. But if you are feeling this way too, questioning the point of it all, just know you are not alone.
Sometimes it is okay to rest. Sometimes it is okay to step back. And sometimes, the fact that you are still here after all this time is worth more than you realize.
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